Thursday, December 3, 2009

the sound of my heart

Each day now there is a moment when I consider my mother's place in my thoughts.

Each day I pause to wonder if I've brought Her to mind since waking.

Each day the answer is the same.

"Mom" is the breath of each of my exhalations.

"Mommy" is the sound that fills the space between my each beat of my heart.

There is no thought, no moment, that is not filled with the essence of my mother.

That's what keeps me going.

4 comments:

Tasty Trix said...

Sigh. I know this feeling. It's so weird to read this - I was just thinking about my mom and how much I miss her.

Laura said...

I'm completely with you. My mom starts chemo next week and being across the country from her makes that voice in my head deafening. Keeping her with you keeps you strong, whole and authentically you. You've got alot of folks pulling for you... stay well and keep plugging along at the daily grind of life :)

myfrenchkitchen said...

What tender feelings...I echo them for my mom too...
Ronelle

www.dhaleb.com said...

It's a heartbreaking feeling. I'm so sorry for your loss...

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