tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4444340959264831070.post2346300356378795407..comments2023-05-01T09:53:58.323-04:00Comments on Sweet Water: nine months and one day (267 days)Jennhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07096322218536625752noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4444340959264831070.post-19888160139923130662010-04-27T12:03:36.468-04:002010-04-27T12:03:36.468-04:00Hi Jenn,
I've just been looking over your blo...Hi Jenn,<br /><br />I've just been looking over your blog and stumbled onto the thread of posts about your mom. It may sounds perverse but I found myself smiling sadly as I read, recognizing myself in so many of the thoughts you express. My mom died when I was 22 (she was 47) and that was almost 18 years ago. I used to have dreams that she had survived the cancer and that her death was just a bad dream, only to wake up and realize it was my mind playing cruel tricks. I used to (and sometimes still do) have the impulse to send her an email, even though she and email never co-existed. But the toughest thing I ever had to do was take my children, who never knew her, to visit her grave. That day I let out a sound such as I have never made before - a primal cry of rage at the injustice - on her behalf at not getting to know her grandchildren, and on theirs at being denied the loving grandmother she would have been. I wish I could tell you it gets easier - I think it's like carrying a heavy suitcase. It doesn't get lighter but you get stronger and feel the burden less. But, to echo your last line, 18 years on and I too 'still don't know how to do this without her.' Thanks for having the courage to share your thoughts and please accept my, albeit belated, heartfelt condolences.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4444340959264831070.post-79759333047336707362010-04-22T21:46:16.882-04:002010-04-22T21:46:16.882-04:00I know your mother is proud of you. Think of how ...I know your mother is proud of you. Think of how you would want your "daughter" or child to react in your death....make your mother proud with your actions and words. She raised a great child-look at your accomplishments that just leap off your blog pages! SheilaPrincipal Brockhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12325691064087714405noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4444340959264831070.post-1656492261289957192010-04-17T09:13:50.474-04:002010-04-17T09:13:50.474-04:00Hang on in there, girl. You're doing ok from ...Hang on in there, girl. You're doing ok from what I can tell from a distance. :)Heikohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17999245793961798308noreply@blogger.com